and what about the most hard and terrible - i dont enjoy i m in a search of confirmation my thoughts even if i m not right at all im blind for obvious in this way
but.. its insight
i really dont have any influence, so it doesnt matter and i need no care. only my experience
one person who dont need me - so? so i need forget. but i cant forget - so i need no feels and emotions to that situation. but i cant live without feelings and emotions - so? so i need to direct my passion to another. nobody.. - so? so i mustnt hide my pain and tears from person gives me that. i l be cry when somebody will hurt me